Some Self-Knowledge

Hey everyone,
its been very long since my last post...but havent really been in the mood to gather thoughts and put them together, so is the case now, but then I found this small note written by me long time back, n i realised that i myself had answers to my questions, its an amazing feeling having found the answers widin me. But then not every aspect of a person is stable to let the person as a summation of mind -body -soul to work together, rather significant and continous efforts need to be taken to maintain the integrity. The wellness of each aspect is important for the smooth functioning , because in case of failure things get worse and even the things that are there in front of u and widin ur reach, seem to be so far and out of reach.
And thats exactly what happened, when a person who knew where his goal was, yet misdirected towards distractions. As a traveller on this journey of life, there are many illusions, few experienced and many more to come. But with every passing lane along my journey I m sumwat able to what these illusions are , and hopefully will soon realise why they are there in 1st place. Anyways moving on, since right now all the action takes place on the educational front , so got wonderfull insights on how actually one shud study, it may be dat most of the people would already know abt it, but i feel so glad abt this enlightment dat i cant help putting it on my blog. So what follows next is the text dat struck me BIG time in a positive way...
Hey hiee,

Well u must b all busy tryin to mug up those subjects, or u really finding it difficult. well u know wat u aint different dan any1 else, every1's sailing in the same boat.

Giving a deep thought to are actions and our responsibilty towards are studies and eventually towards are ownself, we'l find dat we are being lot more ignorant. yes when we ask ourself this question and search for a frank answer this is wat we learn but then we keep manipulating ourself and run away from da reality.

so need not tell u more about what exactly are u going thruh, cos u are already aware but mite b ignorant. So now is the time to remove away the ignorance and truely start educating ourself. u'd think then wat have u been doing so far?? we'l we have been so far just collecting information.

To b very frank we have all taken our education in the wrong way. what we gather through our textbooks n thruh lectures is just information or the processes n phenomenons dat gave rise to those particular theories. But do we ever pay attention to y do we have those topics in our syllabus. this is da missing chain which takes away the fun from our studies. Studing is a really fun way of knowing oneself and other's without switching the medium. "WE GET ONLY ONE CHANCE FOR SCHOOLING IN OUR LIFE BUT THE EDUCATION STAYS WITH US FOR THE LIFETIME". so when so much important is this phase, why just let it go waste. Lets make true use of it.

The point is " No Pain No Gain". true is the fact that we have to take efforts to get and achieve all what we want, but then when we understand n realise what we have to do, then the process becomes fairly easy and interesting.
So take up topics that u like from any subject and find out the facts related to it, understand the story behind it, who made it possible and y it happened in 1st place. Being science student our life depends on Cause-effect relationship. So if we realise this now then later it will b a rather smoother road. This is the process of finding out the why, how , when and what of things, which will truely educate you, rather than just imparting information. And when you put all these scrambled pieces together you'l get to see a beautifull picture which we then choose to be our profession, and excel in it. Be affirmative to changes , and change for the Good of urself. Always consider the bigger picture in life. Realise where u want to go, and crave ur raodmap towards ur goal. persistent hardwork, honesty and faith in urself will be definatly be awarded by the almighty wid frutifull results.
Sieze this oppurtunity to make it grand, by gaining knowledge and not just mere information.

I'l certainly give inputs from time to time as i learn things, inputs from ur side are welcome.

God bless u.. All da best !!!

Some quests and wishes sometimes take too long to be fulfilled and sometimes the wait is forever. I realise the child in me and its this very child who has spoken about so many things that it demands for, of which many were poems and some were just innocent gestures. What cannot be measured cannot be realised completely to put on paper, it can just be felt. Here's few collection of words that rhymed to form a poem.

Di for some reason i m not feelin sleepy...
i understood n learnt abt a gem dat u thot me

its nice to b important , but its important to b nice
dats da edge dat shud b in life

i knw its lil difficult n out of da way...
but its not much when its abt making some1's day

sacrificed in past , a lil more is accepted...
my soul atleast wont let me b rejected

at times a joke n a fool in crowd...
but da feeling so strong i'd always feel proud

i see life as a journey..where u all r my soul-mates...
n v can all relate to each other, when heart's open their gates

as life goes on we change r vision...
change is inevitable..is such a true illusion...

i cried , i laughed , n experienced moments...
n i wait for more..as life becomes prominent

di for some reason i m not feelin sleepy
i understood n learnt abt a gem u thot me...

i m tryin hard to close my eyes...
but da dream is too big to realise...

life is a phenomemon dat i m experiencin...
sometimes nitemare sometimes a sweet dream

at time everythin is so shady n gloomy..dat nothin seems to b rite...
all dat i want to see is out of site

i fear , i get scared , like a timid rabbit....
try hard to brk it..but its a human habbit

then comes a bright light...n da fog is clear...
everythin seems to b so nice..n every1's dear

life again seems to b peepy n nice..
i feel like livin it more dan twice

this cycle will continue until da day
where my eyes will b closed..deep widin da clay..

but da sprits are high...n i'v got wat it takes...
yes LIFE i m ready..lets see who takes away da cake...

even if i win i'l share it wid u...
cos nothin is possible widout u...
- Raghuraj R. Sawant

and the other one..( this one is in marathi)
Tai aaj kiti jhala tari tujhi athvan thambena,
mayene dokyavar firavlela haath aaj janvena,
bahinichya tondun bhau hey aikun dis jhale kiti,
tai kadhi hey harvun jaye hyachi vaat te bhiti.
aso tujhya hya balavar laksha icha aahe ashi,
premane deshil ka doka thevaila tujhya kushit,
bhau athavan kadhto nehmi..
tula kadhi athvin ka me ???
-Raghuraj R. Sawant

The void created to be only filled with tender love..
Time is the most volatile thing,
but it leaves behind stars that fade away and never bling.
time once lost will never come back,
and memories such that you wont forget.
the time spent so far is what I would cherish all life long,
Life is the only oppurtunity to show what we'v got.
And me choosng to show how much i LUV.
Luv is what i need,
and luv is what u can feed me with.
a word of care in despair,
any luvly words that sounds so fair.
Wish me and pray that i dont fall shortanywhere,
cos its just luv that i have to share.
Like ur child just luv me once,
and see you would forget everything and luv me in abundance.
I wish you to hold me , hug me and leave me never,
your little one cries out loud sister, luv you forever....
- Raghuraj R. Sawant

Continued....

My story is carefully woven by the superpower, just like everyone else's. He has granted me with some special abilities and powers which he knew would be very usefull as the time passes by and the pages unfold themselves day by day. So true is the fact that everything is prewritten , but what I assume here is that, its just the various situations we face are prewritten but it may totally vary from person to person how they react to a given situation. Its so much like the video game's we play; where you have a player with some form of weapon or tricks before hand , and some that the player grabs along the way. The player doesnt know what he will be facing in seconds to come , but he's always ready for anything that may come his way and its the spooky aliens or creatures or some sort of villian that are programmer-defined and on trigger of a particular event they come right in front of you. Depending upon the ability of the player , he is either able surpass the diffculties or he dies. I find this very much analogous to our life , with few here and there changes like ; we dont get a second chance once we commit mistake. Its just once and only once that you'l get to live, very few getting a second chance for life. And again , life is really not that ruthless as we see in video games . Tell you it is still so much easier than what we think. Infact we make it more difficult for yourselves. So the point assumed so far is that , the super power above has already framed a set of situations for everyone of us , depending upon the way we use our resources and the way we react corrospondingly those situations are unfolded before us. So for the same situation there may be different results for different people. Some prayers to almighty , good deeds help to cut down the severness of the consequences if at all the situations happen to be painfull. And being our creator he certainly has love towards us and he rightly listens to our prayers. Here the sms that I'v got from my friend is so much applicable; GOD allows life to be rocky.His challenge is not to let the rocks grind us into dust but to polish us to become a brilliant gem. So in most of the cases we misinterpret HIS actions. If considering what He has given me , I find myself very lucky and happy with what I have and for those things which I dont have and I wish to have them , He has given me self confidence , never-give-up spirit , hardworking nature , honesty towards my work and more so the additional love and care which inspires me to do everything that I wish to have. Things might not always go the way I would want but still he has given me the patience and endurance to carry on , which I feel will help me a lot to see myself through all the difficulties. Another fact understood is that its not just about always winning battles but eventually its about winning the war, so falling short in some areas shouldnt be given too much importance rather the next battle shoudl be taken into consideration. So true is the fact that we are all Loners ; we have come alone and we will go alone. But throughout this Journey from birth to death we have to be dependant on someone or the other. Be it our parents, our the preechings of saints , our siblings , our friends, or anyone out there in the world whom you dont even know. When we are happy we are capable enough to support others but when we are low and susceptible then we need someone to pamper us and support us. So being social animals we need to work socially and every decision we take has to be considered from everyone's point of view. After understanding all these facts , I feel that I am able to think deeply about every aspect that is related to me, giving utmost importance to every person that means to me , caring and respecting their emotions and feelings and at the same time correcting them if at all they happen to be wrong. I have started developing an affnity towards my loved one's so much that every problem they face or every joy they celebrate seems to be mine. This aspect adds to the possesiveness or at times over possesiveness , and all the love and care I share with them. There is still lot more to be understood and learnt; but one thing is for sure that this story will complete only when the character that I m depciting perishes, and hopefully my story shall be liked by all...

Story-Teller

Once upon a time … is the way, how most of the stories would start. And just like mine, everyone else’s story starts the same way. For, I think that each individual in himself is a story, and the amalgamating such stories forms a chapter, and further such chapters bind together to procreate a book called Life. If we give a deep thought, we will notice that each Era had its own book, and every book projected its own morals. Coming back to primitive aspect of this book called Life, each story is crafted in such a way that no two stories are same, yet so many stories are so much adaptable that they seem to be analogous. And it is this very connection that binds so many stories together, and their conjunction keeps depicting the story further more.
Among all the chapters and among all the stories, one story that I know best is Mine. My story just like anyone else’s is very special and dear to me. The best part is that I am given a chance to play so many roles and that too being restricted to a single character. Out there in the real world lies my stage, where I perform everyday-whether I like it or not. Previously there wasn’t much knowledge about the story or rather the character that I was portraying, but now gradually as the time passes the role is being understood by me and eventually by the audience too. It’s just the start and there’s so much to really understand the different aspects of the character. The character so far is shown to be very strong from within, a soul with never-give-up attitude, loving, caring, moralistic, and ethical , but at the same time timid, over-considerate.